viperfdl: I hate myself, my inability to function in this system the whole world seems to worship. My depressions and the absence of any motivation, interest or satisfaction. Also I hate my emotional need to feel liked and accepted.
Something else that grinds my gears are this stupid categorizations like cis, cishet or white cis male. You can call me a man or a male human but stop using this totally made up bullshit just to make you feel more progressive and important then you really are!
Sorry, but if you are assigned male at birth and identify as a man, then you are indeed a cisgender man. The term "cisgender" was invented to avoid having the connotation of words like "normal" coming up. It is not meant to be offensive, it's just descriptive, in this case meaning nothing more than "not transgender".
"cishet" is really just a brief way of saying "cisgender" and "heterosexual" (or, if you prefer, "straight") in one short word. Again, it is just descriptive.
Similar terms, used in different contexts, are "sighted", "able-bodied", and "right-handed".
Perhaps you should carefully reflect on why you are depressed and lack motivation. Maybe you have a chemical imbalance (which could be fixed with the right medicine). Maybe you are LGBT and don't realize it (or have repressed it). Maybe your religious beliefs are causing you distress. Maybe it's something else entirely.
